staring straight forward.
Eyes locked on anything but him
your lips quiver and that terrible word slips out.
In the phrase that so many
dread to hear.
"I want a divorce."
At that very moment
you cannot even fathom
what the future will be like.
If it will be fantastic
or terrible.
All you know is that
there is a burning ache
deep in the pit of our soul.
There was a time
where I thought I would
shrivel up and die.
Because of the sorrow
that ate away my hope.
There were days I thought
I could make it.
And days that I didn't
see a point to go on.
Then I met him.
And it was as if
the blind fold
that covered my eyes
from what truly was happiness.
Was snipped away,
and I was left standing
blinking in the bright light
of a new view of what everything was.
It was then
I realized that happiness
was not part of my vocabulary
for the 2 years that I was married.
I was wandering through
my life, with smoke stinging my eyes.
That smoke was doubt.
Now,
I couldn't be more sure
than I ever have been
in my entire life.
There IS a light at the end
of the tunnel.
Though it seems dim when you
start your journey.
As you continue to walk
the light will grow into a beacon.
That will lead you to what
was in store for you all along.
When it seems bleak
please hold on.
Life is a wild roller coaster
that will both terrify you
and exhilarate you.
Going from,
divorcée to fiancée.
Were both the best decisions
I ever made.
A.A.
